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Antoine, the blind medium

In the mid-1990s I attended a weekly spiritualist church meeting in Hereford. I can’t remember the exact location, but it was some sort of parochial hall building, draughty and shabby with a stage at the front, and hard chairs that scraped noisily on the wooden floor. The location doesn’t really matter, but when my internet search was unsuccessful, and nothing rang a bell on Google maps, it made me wonder how we found our way around back then. Few of us had internet access or sat navs, yet we still managed somehow.

Each week, I went along hoping Anton would be there. I’m calling him “Anton” here, because that’s how we pronounced it, and it’s what I’d thought his name was for the past thirty years. I’d never seen his name written down, or heard his surname used. The name “Anton” was enough to make everyone’s face light up, as his kindness, humour and cheerfulness always lifted the atmosphere of the dingy venue a good few levels, and brought warmth and laughter to the gathering. I never even spoke to him … I sat near the back and slunk away after the closing prayer, before the tea and biscuits came out.

Whenever Anton was there, the meeting was attended by a group of students from the local college for the blind. I don’t know whether Anton attended the college as a student or as a mentor, but he always had a good following, and would chide them good-humouredly when their talking watches, all slightly out of sync, would pipe up and announce the time at an inappropriate moment.

Yesterday, I discovered that “Anton” was in fact Antoine Reeves. As the title of this post suggests, Antoine was a medium and he was blind. He was also a talented musician who would bolster our attempts at hymns with his keyboard accompaniment and sometimes treat us to a rendition of a song he’d composed … as well as giving us a demonstration of mediumship.

I recall an evening when someone’s loved one had come through, and Anton was delivering their message, he paused after the words, “in the Spring, when the birds are singing in the trees”, and asked us, “What does he mean by that?” Someone enlightened him that birds often sit in trees and sing.

“Do they really? Well, I never knew that!” said Anton, with his characteristic eyes-closed, crinkling smile, and continued with the message.

I moved away from Hereford and no longer attended those meetings, but often thought of Anton. In more recent years, I’ve googled “Anton blind medium Hereford” with no successful results.

Yesterday, I was telling my partner about him, and mentioned the occasion he’d questioned “birds singing in trees” because, being blind, that was something he’d never seen … and there must have been so many other things!

I also told him how Anton had amused the congregation when he mimicked his mother yelling down the garden for him to come indoors. His voice had transformed as if channelling her – but it was a strong Jamaican Patois that boomed around the hall. He then explained, in his usual dulcet northern tone, “My mother came from Jamaica, you see,” and we all laughed at the vocal contrast.

I ended by telling Julz that if only I knew Anton’s surname, he’s bound to be somewhere on the internet … and then “Reeve” or “Reeves” suddenly came to me. Maybe I had heard someone say his full name all those years ago, or perhaps it’s because Rachel Reeves keeps getting mentioned in the news?!

Anyway, I googled “Anton Reeve” and found Antoine Reeves! No mention of his work in Herefordshire though.

Sadly, he passed away in 2021, aged sixty-six, according to this lovely tribute I found:

I’d like to think he wouldn’t have minded returning to spirit, as he’d spent years bridging the gap between the two worlds.

I also found his recording on YouTube of “Mother”, a song I find even more moving now than when he sang it for us, accompanied by his keyboard, about thirty years ago:

Last night, during my early-hours wide-awake time, I thought about Antoine, and asked him for a sign that he was still around.

This morning, when I went for my regular woodland wanderings, a robin appeared on the path in front of me. I stopped and it flew up into a tree, perched on a low branch, and chirped a little melody.

“Antoine!” I called softly, and instead of flying away, he tilted his head as if listening, and repeated the song again. We carried on this exchange, me and the robin, for a couple of minutes until I saw some dog-walkers approaching and moved on.

Perhaps it’s just that I was looking for a sign, as robins are often quite tame, but I’d prefer to believe it was Antoine checking in by singing in the trees, bless him.

One card short of a full deck

About thirty years ago, I clambered up the slippery sides of a deep, dark well and then teetered on the edge of it for some time, staring back down into the murky depths and trying not to slip.

Searching for an existence that was different from reality, I had a few Tarot readings. I can’t recall being told anything of significance – I think the readers quickly intuited that I was one card short of a full deck, and provided a bit of counselling, then sent me away feeling hopeful about the future.

It was around this time I discovered The Connolly Tarot deck. Its brightness and positivity were just what I needed from the tarot back then – in fact I’ve just looked it up on the internet and found it summed up beautifully (by Aeclectic Tarot) as having “kinder, gentler tarot imagery with a Christian influence”.

Back then, I didn’t have internet access to track down a copy, but managed to get one from a lovely little shop call “Strangeness and Charm” that used to be in Worcester and sold that sort of thing. I think they actually ordered it for me. That’s how it worked before online shopping.

I took it home and spent some time looking through the cards and getting to know them. There was something healing about the images and their key meanings. They reminded me of stained-glass windows.

Instead of The Devil, we have Materialism and instead of Death it’s Transformation. In the ten of swords, the swords are pointing away from the subject as if her energy is deflecting them.

I quickly noticed the three of wands was missing, despite the deck being brand new and cellophane sealed. Oh well. I substituted one of the two extra cards in the box, which I guess are the equivalent of jokers in playing cards.

The Connolly Tarot became the deck that I’ve used regularly since that day. I don’t use them for divination – I’m not a tarot reader – I just like the cards and enjoy shuffling them and seeing what crops up when I fan them out face-down and randomly draw a spread. I’m sure the cards have their own energy, because I tend to do the same spread three times, and it’s uncanny how often the same cards come out, no matter how thoroughly I shuffle them.

Much as I love The Connolly Tarot, when I created The Lighthouse Tarot, I went for an entirely different feel, favouring a painterly style rather than clearly drawn outlines and borders. I reserved the sharpness for the symbols and text, keeping the background loose and flowing. In a much happier place, I favoured the traditional Rider-Waite-Smith definitions, with The Devil and Death, and with swords that are about to hit the target unless evasive action is taken. Remember, we are empowered to steer our own course – the outcome is not inevitable.

I’ve acquired a few other decks over the years but The Connolly Tarot is the only one I’ve really bonded with and use regularly. After thirty years, I should probably have got over the missing three of wands, yet it still irked me slightly when the substitute card came out in a spread. First world problem, I know!

Recently, I found a tarot card group on Facebook where people create “Magpie” decks by putting together their favourite cards from various split decks. I’m not sure how that works when the backs of the cards, and possibly the sizes are different. Surely you know which card you are drawing by the design on the back? Still, that’s not the point.

Members of this group trade the surplus cards they don’t use, so if anyone is searching for a particular card, there’s a chance someone out there might have it. I asked, and someone from the USA responded that they had it going spare 🙂

It was no surprise that when I knew the three of wands was heading my way, the substitute card cropped up persistently in my Celtic cross for a week or two. The cards also tend to reflect my mood, so if I’m in a funk, all the swords come out!

Well … I drafted this post over a month ago, and the three of wands appears to have lost its way. Is this a message from the universe that my deck is complete as it is? Or simply an indication that the postal service has gone to sh*t!

Will it turn up now that I’ve shared this? Don’t worry, I’ll let you know! 😉

Happy Easter, everyone xxx

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